free write( feeling inside)

free write i dont know wat to say idk wat to think its like life passing me by and am still in the same place everone getting accepted to collage and me i cant even pass the millitary test it makes me wounder wat am i goin to be doin with the rest of my life and goin to be the cop i always wanted to be or am i goin to be a working working deadend jobs til i die or am i goin make something of my self idk its hard to think were ill be in 5-10 years will i be finshhing my last year of collage or will i still be working in the same job it scares me sometime thinking i had for years to get perpard and am still stuck dont get me wrong i didnt wasted my time like alout mf my peers did but i was just late i was in small class up to this year they babied us til they told us last years we have to take hasp and its like ive been playing catch up all years ND I HATE IT i hate the school system made me late and ill never be who i want to becuae i dont know am an 18 years old with a 10 year old vocab i cant read well but i will never let that hold me back i will do wat i always wated to do it will take some time but i will happen hopfully if i keep my head up