''Life'' Life is hard, last week my mother got fired from her job. My life seem so cold because my mom is getting old, im not old enough to get a good paying job. I looked at everyone as my enemy. All i ketp thinking is that we are going to loss are house, we are going to living on the street poor with no money or nothing. I pryed to god that everything will be ok. Between my bro getting killed and me not knowing what im going to do after school. Felt as though i was siking slowly. My mom got her job back, at that time i felt better. I wish i was rich, i wish life wasnt so diffcult. I want my dad back i want my brother back i would do anything just to smoke with him one more time i really do miss him. I cant even explain how i feel thats how bad it is. Big ju was my nigga,my boi, my friend, my brother, family, its crazy how one day can be find but the next day it feels like its your last, thats why i never save my checks i spend my money like its my last because i dont know when its going to be my last. Forget waiting im spending cause when i die i cant use the money so i ill use it now. I wish i can rewind time so i can go back to when i was little i woud do things much different. My heart wont be the same until i sit in the seat next to him and somke some regg with my boy. We use to be the highest laughing about dumd stuff but i enjoy every dutch i rolled with him even when he didnt know how to roll we still did and had fun doing it. Ill never forget my brother he is my soul and he is watching over me with my dad..... At least one of my brothers meet my father... I love you big ju. I got that shit tatted...