I am.....

I am a theater kid who loves to sing and dance. I am currently a student at CCTS enrolled in their Performing Arts career field. I am a freak who plays Dungeons and Dragons, and goes out LARPing. I am crazy about performing in any way possible. I am a person who has taken a mime class. I am a mime of sorts longing to speak out and tell people that they have nothing to fear from my kind. I am a future employee of the games department of Six Flags Great Adventure in Jackson, NJ. I am lackadaisical, apathetic, ungrateful, occasionally boring, but extremely smart student.

I am an aspiring broadway or movie star who doesn't know where to start in the world. I am a confused adolescent who sporadically makes a few bad decisions, and gets in quite a bit of trouble for them. I am a child who is forced to go to therapy for different things that my mom is afraid I will do. I am an emotional person who committed acts of self-harm in the past. I am an exceedingly busy person who, despite the fact that he knows he should be doing important things, still finds time to over-think every little thing. I am an amazing liar who is able to convince his friends that nothing is wrong, and tries to tell himself the same thing. I am a victim and predator when it comes to minor bullying. I am a twin who is always asked if both of us are gay. I am a twin who is tired of always being confused with my brother. I am a teenager who is tired of not having many guy friends because they all think I'm gay and want to get in their pants.

I am a member of the Harmony Showchoir which always comes up in my blog posts. I am a recently licensed driver who hardly ever gets the chance to go where he wants to with his car. I am a car owner who needs to pay over a thousand dollars in order to get my car to a condition where it is safe for me to drive it. I am a boy who has always had trouble with relationships due to his parents failed marriage. I am a son who is determined to never end up like his father. I am an eighteen year old male who has lost both of his grandfathers, and whose grandmothers aren't that far away from death. I am a child at heart longing to go play with his Poppop who died of lung cancer when the child was only in kindergarten. I am a 90's kid who can't remember anything that happened to him on 9/11. I am an open-minded individual who supports gay rights so that his brother, aunt, and uncle can all eventually get married to the ones they love. I am a kid who probably wouldn't exist if my mother hadn't had a miscarriage before me. I am the son of Lorena and Thom Melcher. I am what I am, I am my own special creation. I am me and there may be a ton of things I would like to be different in my life, but I wouldn't change who I am for anything or anybody. I am who I am and there is nothing you can say or do to hurt me more than I hurt myself.